Fandom: Criminal Minds
Prompt for 24_runes: #6 Kenaz (loss of illusion and false hope)
Word count: 2063
Rating: T just to be sure
Disclaimer: Neither the show nor the characters belong to me, they belong to CBS. Nonetheless, I love to borrow them from time to time.
Summary: Part 6/? of the ‘Loser Lynch’ series. Realization usually hits when it’s too late.warnings: spoilers for season 3
“Where are my car keys?” Penelope wanted to know. “I’m going to be late for work.” She was glad that today she was at least able to go to work at all.
“You don’t need to go to work.” Kevin smiled at her.
She turned to frown at him: “What do you mean?”
“I called in sick for you.” he explained with a smirk. “That means we have the whole day for ourselves.”
“Kevin, I’m fine… why did you… Where are the keys for Esther?” she was starting to get seriously angry with him.
But he refused to answer.
“Fine.” Penelope grumbled and headed for the door. She could as well take the bus or a cab. When she reached for the knob she found the front door of their apartment locked. Sighing she fished her keys out of her purse and tried them… They didn’t fit.
Slowly she turned around just to find Kevin directly behind her. “Why is the door locked?” she whispered.
“You don’t need to go anywhere.” he just shrugged, the smirk Penelope had liked so much until now still on his face.
“Why don’t my keys fit anymore?” she wanted to know.
“I changed the lock.” he replied with a nonchalant shrug.
“Why?” she gasped. This couldn’t be true, it simply couldn’t be happening.
“Because I knew that otherwise you wouldn’t stay here with
“But I can’t just…” she stopped in the middle of the sentence when she saw the fury on his face. He looked like he was ready to hit her if she didn’t agree with him.
“I said you need some time off.” he hissed.
“Okay.” Penelope quickly agreed and let him lead her towards the bedroom. Derek had been here just yesterday and he had called the day before. He surely wouldn’t stop checking on her.
But what was she going to do if he came over again?! He would see that he’d been right about Kevin and that she never got a nice guy.
“You know, I’m really feeling a little tired.” she gave Kevin the most honest smile she could manage. “You’re certainly right, I should get some rest.”
“Do so.” he nodded, a wide grin on his face. “I’ll take care of you.”
“I know you will.” she whispered and swallowed as he leaned forward to kiss her. For a second she managed to pretend that everything was still fine, just like it had been the day before. That Kevin loved her, just wanted to take care of her and that she was on cloud nine.
But when he pulled back and she looked at him the realization hit her again. Derek had been right, once again. How could she ever have thought that someone truly loved her and that there wasn’t a snag about it?!
“I’ll check on you later.” he promised.
Penelope just nodded and disappeared in the bedroom where she broke down on the bed and cried for what seemed like the rest of the day.
It must be a bad dream that she was locked up in their apartment by the man she loved and she’d thought loved her too. Maybe she should try and call for help. But when she tried to open the window she noticed that he’d changed the catch and it was locked as well. So she laid back down on the bed, curled up into a ball again and tried to sleep.
Kevin left her alone for the rest of the day. He came in to check on her a couple of times but she pretended to be asleep. He woke her up for dinner and started to kiss her afterwards. She’d always liked being touched by him but suddenly it made her feel sick.
She told him to stop and the next second she disappeared in the bathroom where she had to throw up. She didn’t even need to pretend to be sick. She really was.
“Are you okay?” he asked through the door.
“Yeah” she replied from where she was sitting next to the toilet, “I’m fine. Just… sick. Gimme a minute.”
Fortunately that was enough to make him leave her alone for the rest of the night.
The next day she realized that Kevin had taken away her laptop and her cell phone so there was no way she could call anyone or at least send an email. When she asked him about it he just said that she needed ‘a pause from all the technology’.
The days past and no one came to check on her. She started wondering what Kevin might have told them. Had he told them she was severely ill? Or that she didn’t want to see any of them? Wasn’t she supposed to see a doctor if she was ill for a longer period of time?
After about three days Penelope decided that it was time to take matters into her own hand.
When Kevin went out to do some shopping she used one of her hairpins to try and unlock the door. Unfortunately, that turned out to be much harder than it looked when they did it in the movies so she decided to try something else.
She searched the drawers for some tools. She could dismantle a computer and put it together afterwards. It must be possible for her to dismantle the lock.
It was. She’d just managed to open the door and was pretty much running down the corridor when Kevin returned. He stepped out of the elevators and suddenly blocked her way.
She swallowed hard at the stern expression on his face.
He didn’t say anything. Instead he raised his hand and hit her.
Holding her aching cheek she stared at him in shock.
Kevin grabbed her hand, forced her back into the apartment, then into the bedroom and threw her on the bed. “You’ll stay here!” he snarled as he locked the door behind him. He left her alone, certainly to fix the lock in their front door.
This wasn’t happening, it simply couldn’t be. Kevin wasn’t the kind of guy who hit his girlfriend. He wouldn’t do all this to her. He loved her!
At least that was what she’d been thinking until now. She just wished that Derek would come to her rescue. Or maybe it was better if he didn’t so she didn’t have to go through the embarrassment of proving him right again.
Why was all this happening to her? First
When Kevin returned he was beside himself with anger. He grabbed her upper arms and shook her forcefully. “Why did you do this?” he shouted at her.
“I’m sorry.” Penelope whispered and ducked instinctively afraid that he would hit her again.
“You wanted to leave me!” he yelled and raised his fist.
When he let go of her she fell back down on the bed and immediately curled up in a ball to hide from the hits she expected.
But he didn’t hit her. In contrast, his face suddenly softened when he noticed that she was sobbing. Catching her in his arms and gently swaying her back and forth Kevin softly said: “I’m sorry, Penelope, I didn’t want to hurt you.”
She just nodded not sure what he wanted her to say and afraid she might say something wrong. She didn’t even dare to try and fight him. If only she’d listened to Derek instead of deceiving herself!
It was probably true that Kevin had poisoned her to make her ill and maybe he’d even caused the miscarriage. But why? Why would he do that? Well, he constantly begged her to stop working basically because he was insanely jealous of Derek. And he’d not been happy when she’d told him about the baby.
Smiling Kevin pulled back a little, caressed her cheek and leaned in to peck her lips. Then he went to the kitchen to bring her some ice for the black eye that was slowly forming on her face.
She couldn’t manage to say anything. But she managed to give him a weak smile.
“You know, I love to take care of you.” Kevin said and gently stroked her hair.
Penelope shivered in response to his touch – but for the first time it wasn’t out of excitement but out of fear and disgust.
Kevin didn’t seem to notice that or he didn’t pay attention. He kept smiling at her and whispered: “We’ll always be together. No one will get between us, I’ll make sure of that. You’re safe here, I’ll keep you safe.”
She nodded. The only problem was that he was the one from whom she needed to be saved. He’d hit her once. That meant it was only a matter of time before he’d hit her again. Penelope had seen that happen way too often. But she’d never thought it would happen to her.
“You know that I can take good care of you, right?” he asked.
“Yes.” she managed to respond.
“Good.” he grinned happily. “Because from now on I’ll never gonna leave you alone again.”
Penelope smiled and swallowed hard. She had a feeling that this wasn’t an idle threat.
For the rest of the day he was the sweet and caring man she’d fallen in love with and if he hadn’t locked her up in the bedroom she’d maybe even been able to pretend that everything was normal, just as perfect as it used to be.
But of course, that wouldn’t have changed anything. She’d just been deceiving herself again. She should stop thinking that any normal man in this world would ever be truly interested in her. She only got the psychopaths – if she got anyone at all.
She wasn’t sure what was more humiliating, the fact that her boyfriend had turned out to be a psychopath who had locked her up in their apartment and now started to hit her and that there was no way she could have gotten out of here.
Or the fact that she’d been so wrong about him. After all, she’d trusted him, fallen in love with him, even moved with him. She’d been the one who’d given him the opportunity to do all this to her in the first place.
She needed to get out of there! She definitely deserved something better than that! And she’d rather die old and lonely than be locked up in that bedroom for the rest of her life.
If only she could at least send a message to anyone. Or if only Derek came by to check on her again – or anyone else for that matter. She could just cry for help then. But as long as there was no one there to hear her that would only make Kevin more angry.
And when Kevin came to bed with her that evening she had to realize that things could only get worse. He leaned over to kiss her and at first she didn’t refuse. But when he started to unbutton the blouse she was wearing she pushed him away.
“What?” Kevin asked angrily. “Don’t you want me anymore?”
“Yes, I do.” she quickly objected. “It’s just… I… I’m not feeling well. I have a headache and… and my stomach… it still hurts.”
“Don’t lie to
“I’m not feeling better.” she whimpered. In fact, she was feeling worse than ever before.
“You never spurned me before and you won’t start now!” he hissed as he ripped her blouse open. “I’m not the loser you can treat like that.”“Don’t! Please, don’t!” Penelope begged and tried to fight him. She screamed – even though she was sure that no one would hear her anyway – tried to punch him and kick him. But unfortunately, Kevin was much stronger than she was.